Sunday Reset 1.21.24

#SundayReset

I’m a hard worker.

It’s been interesting, recently, to have people repeat this idea back to me. To mention my work ethic. To call attention to it.

I don’t always know how to turn it off. It can feel more than second nature—the only nature.

This is a blessing and a curse. It is a curse when it leads to burn out. It is a blessing when aligned with a passion or a goal.

At 37, I try to not work hard for the sake of working hard. But, I know, at times I definitely have.

As an associate, that can feel icky. It can be hard, at times, to see the purpose of working so hard.

It is easier to question the system—a system that often needs questioning, but also a system that hones skills, builds relationships, and provides intellectually stimulating work.

I’ve found that shifting my perspective helps me find purpose, helps me understand the “why” behind the hard work.

Billable hours? A metric to track the skills and opportunities I’m gathering. A measure of the “practice” I’m putting into my career.

Late nights (early mornings)? Showing ownership of a file, becoming one with the facts, building camaraderie with a team, getting to prepare for oral argument or depositions or trial (a dream).

Weekend work? Taking advantage of quiet time, creating space for networking and personal time during the week.

It is supposed to be hard.

Not toxic, not aggressive, not hard for the sake of being hard.

Hard because the stakes are high. Hard because a lot is expected of me. Hard because there’s still so much to learn.

I am a hard worker. I know many of you are too. It is not always worth it, but most often it is. Keep your “why” in mind. Reflect on your perspective. Find the effort that aligns with your mission, passion, or goal. A worthwhile journey will follow.

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